I havent posted much...

Ive had a lot going on...I'm the type of person that when I'm happy, I'm very outgoing, but if I'm upset, I let it stew within myself.  That being said, the reason Ive been away for so long is that I'm heartbroken... when I was in Vegas, after a 13 hour trip to the ER, I discovered that I had what the doctor called a "threatening miscarriage" and a possible blighted ovum.  Then, my worst fears came true, and I in fact, miscarried.  I miscarried at 9 weeks but the baby/sac only measured 5 weeks so for a full month I was going about my life being so happy about being pregnant and sure enough, i technically wasn't anymore..

Its an odd feeling, I don't know how else to put it...but I feel like I'm in a state of limbo.  I have been so busy that I keep focusing on everything that I have to do with my friends upcoming wedding that I haven't had time to focus on the reality...but I will, I just don't want to be a Debby downer when my friend is celebrating her marriage to the guy of her dreams!

So that's my update, not the update that I had imagined giving...but "everything happens for a reason" (i hate that quote now...) I will still be MIA until I get back home to NC (2 weeks) and then I have a huge list of crafts so I plan to start doing lots of my craft projects, and my I think blogging might help me get back to my normal self...

well, that's the end of the depressing post....