Thursday, December 30, 2010


I had heard this before "1st deployment is always the worse, 2nd is the best, 3rd and more just suck" and didnt quite believe anyone who would tell me.  After all, you think the more times it happens, the easier it will be.  Now some cases I would believe that, such as having to take care of children that you didnt used to have during previous deployments but that isnt OUR case so I dont know why exactly that statement still rings true to me.

As mentioned in other posts, 1st deployment was torture...I spent most of my time crying! I was a big ball of pity and was very "woe is me".  In a nut shell, I was miserable and nothing was going to change that until Kale was back with me. This is a picture of a hoodie that I wore all the time...February was (obviously) homecoming

Second deployment was a 180 from the 1st one.  During the 7 months in between him coming home from first deployment to him deploying to Afghanistan, not only had I made a lot of military spouse friends but I moved down to NC.  Moving down and being with people in the same situation as me didnt allow me to pull my "woe is me" crap anymore.  So I stayed very positive, was very busy with school and friends and the months really flew by! I also had Coop, who loved helping me make carepackes!

 When word came that deployment #3 was in the works, I thought "no sweat".  Not only was he going on a MEU which meant he would most likely not have to see combat but I am used to him being gone for long periods of time so it should be just as easy, if not easier this time around.

Nope...I am so over this deployment.  I dont know what it is but I was so proud of how well I was doing last deployment and really surprised myself at how positive and upbeat I stayed.  Now that I knew that I could act that way, I was just expected to.  So now, its almost as if I wont have that major personal accomplishment like last deployment which makes me feel so over it.  Thats the only way I can describe it...I am OVER it!

Now, Im not complaining per say about this deployment but just my attitude about it.  I wish I had a better attititude about the whole thing...but I dont see it changing any time soon but its something that I need to get used to because I highly doubt that will be our last deployment...

Can it be homecoming time again so I can do this...
and this....

and last but not least lots of this...

This concludes my whiney, annoying, complaining post about me being whiney, annoying and a complainer!


  1. Our 2nd was a lot easier than our 1st but the 1st was 15 months and 2nd 11 months so I think that had a lot to do with it too. *hugs* as you get through this deployment.

  2. Oh wow! 15 and 11 months! Here I am complaining about my 7-9 month ones...blah! Thanks for the support! :)


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