I had quite a scare on Tuesday...I had friends over for dinner and we were enjoying our dessert- I made Chocolate Chip Cookie Pie, it was amazing, but that is for another post! There was a knock at the door. Now, any military spouse who has their loved one deployed can tell you that until they are home, you are already a little jumpy when people come to the door.
So, my heart starts to race just a little at the sound of the door knocking. I get up and turn the corner and since it was dark, I could only make out 2 guys standing at the door. My heart starts racing quicker because I know that the CACO (Causality Assistant Call Officer) do notifications with a Chaplin so they are always in pairs.
At this point I was still thinking I that things could be fine, maybe it was the Meat Guys that drive around! Then, I see it....I see the one wearing a dark green jacket. At this point, my heart is pounding out of my chest. You see, our command always told us "CACO wear their Alphas (green dress uniform) to notify, so if you see the dress blues, you are fine!" Oh crap...this isn't going so well...
10 more steps...10 more steps...
I keep walking toward the door, my mind is RACING! My thoughts kept changing- "OMG, I have friends over!", "Will one of them chase after my dogs when they run out the front door after I pass out?", "Will someone call LeShea", "Are his parents being notified now too?", "How do I tell my family?", "My life is about to be O-V-E-R".
Just as I'm taking a deep breath and reach for the handle- I see it, the guys are wearing JEANS! JEANS! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!
I open the door, and they hand me a pamphlet and ask if I have a Church because they would like to invite me to their Church. My mind is now racing again about how I want to beat these people but all I could form was "I'm Catholic" and shut the door. I couldn't believe it, who goes door to door at NIGHT!
I walked back to the table and went about my night but as more and more time went on, the more upset I got. I thought my life was about to change forever, but it didnt....but there are lots of women who open that door and don't get stupid people inviting them to Church, they get the CACO.
I had a pit in my stomach for hours after but some people have that pit in their stomach for the rest of their lives. I can only pray for them, for their comfort, and for those Church people to forgive me for the nasty email I wrote to them.